the short of it

tranquility has found me. we're dancing a slow, awkward, and unfamiliar samba. but, we're learning each other. hopefully, it'll stay.

happy holidays, my luvs.

mwah!

my overshare of the day

so this morning, tamia was on the steve harvey radio show. wow!!! i forgot how vicious her pipes were/are! omg! she did some old cuts (a capella) and some snippits from a few tracks on her new album (out today). AMAZING to say the least. now, again, the performance was a capella so i don't know what the entire scope of arrangement is like on the album. but, from what i heard, i think imma get it today. itunes... swipe my shit! lol

she sang a verse from a song called "me" and i was in my car crying like a damn baby :'( i could just relate to the lyrics (i guess) and her voice is soooo amazing. folks like her and amel always shock me when i revisit their stuff. i guess it's because they are so overlooked by the mainstream most of the time for the beyonces and (non-singing-ass) ashantis/ciaras. if you ever really listen to tamia or amel or jill... i mean REALLY listen... they are vocal powerhouses! especially live. like spine-tingly vocalists. at least, i enjoy them :\

kai... you got two cents? am i off base here?

any who... you guys sure have been silent out there lately. anything new? what's good? any new year's eve plans to write home about? do tell. else... screw you all :p (j/k... sort of...)

~Love was a former owner, but quiet is renting our house
It seizes my lips from speaking, but forms a sarcastic smile
Suspense now raised one of your eyebrows
You ask me if there's someone else
I replied yes, hell yes
You asked me if it's another man, I said no
You laughed and say is it a woman, I say yeah
Surprisingly you asked for honey's name

And her name is me,
And she loves me more than you'll ever know
And I finally see that loving you and loving me
Just don't seem to work at all
So patiently, she's waiting on me to tell you
That she needs love
And to choose between you two, boy you know
If I have to choose, I choose me

And she told me to tell you to never to hurt me again
Cuz if you haven't heard she's a bad chick
Even though I haven't been, no
Yet and still you try and test me by raisin' an angry hand
Put it down, put it down
I'm leavin don't try and stop me, (no)
I'm late and she is waiting, (yes)
My love for me is too much so I can't stay

And her name is me,
And she loves me more than you'll ever know
And I finally see that loving you and me
Just don't seem to work at all
So patiently, she's waiting on me to tell you
That she needs love
And to choose between you two, boy you know
If I have to choose, I choose me
Cuz she's actually formin' a threesome
And I'm happy that I can join them, and
There names are me, myself and I

And her name is me,
She loves me more than you'll ever know
I finally see that loving you and loving me
Just don't seem to work work at all
So patiently, she's waiting on me to tell you
That she needs love,
And to choose between you two, boy you know
If I have to choose, I choose me
She's waiting on me to tell you that she needs love,
Gotta choose between you two, and you know
And if I have to choose,
I choose me, me, I gotta go with me~

a few catchings up and anecdotes

(and yes... i said catchings... what?!?!)

first order of business:
"Maturity is a bitter disappointment for which no remedy exists, unless laughter can be said to remedy anything. "
- Kurt Vonnegut

i feel this way when my mortgage comes outta my account or i get to experience the joyful (insert sarcastic tone here) side-effects of the decisions i've made "for the better."

next up:
why did a fox news cast guy repeatedly refer to barack obama as an "articulate" and "well-spoken" "young man." wtf?!?! as if he was suppose to be something else. he's a u.s. senator for pete's sake! perhaps his new hampshire visit/speech shoulda went, "o-k-k-k... i'm fit'n ta run fa prez out dis bitch!" furthermore, he's older than my daddy so "young" wouldn't be what i'd use to describe him either. now, with respect to most folks who sit on the senate, he very well may be "young." but i detected that "boy" undertone to it. call me what you want but i know what i heard. damn shame. not a shocker but still a disappointment. then again, we shouldn't be watching fox for news anyways. it's always laced with a one-sided point of view. plus, it's the network that broadcasts "the o.c."

moving on:
i have officially bumped atlanta to the top of my list of "cities to which i want to relocate." so the list is short, but it made it's way to the top. i visited this weekend and had a cool time. last time i visited i was a junior in hs. so that didn't count. this time around i got my grown woman on (as best i know how) and i was enlightened. i must get back there a few more times before i can make it official. i need to check out the famlee scene down there just to seal the deal.

(psst...DN... i got the brochures. lol)
(ms luvjunky, what you got??)

nighty night, my loves. mamma loves ya :)

so...

i didn't sleep well last night. actually, i should say this morning. and here i'm thinking it was a sealed deal. i had this monstrous burger, a nice pint of yeungling, and a bottle of some kinda fruity beer thingy (think "framboise"-esque). full belly and the malt liquor gave me a major case of "the 'itis". i get home and practically plumet into bed and i'm out, right! then, at 3 friggin 49 this morning, i'm up...wired... wtf?!?! i hate that mess. i was determined to fall back to sleep. so i laid there still as a rock tryna lure myself to sleep to the hum of the space heater. and wouldn't you damnit know it... i ain't get another wink of shut eye before it was time to get up?!?! that pretty much blew me this morning.

tonight... i'm trying one of my lack-luster remedies... sleepy time pills :P

otherwise... how is hump day for everyone? do tell (if you are so inclined)

mwah!

am i...

an ass for not attending all the black staff stuff that happens on campus? or how 'bout the black alumni stuff at hopkins? i feel like i'm not reaching back these days and that i'm too wrapped up in my own isht. selfish much, chantele? geez. where's my motivation, "caesar?"

(quick... what movie is that from??)

point of inquiry

providence would not put more on me than i could handle, right?

my thinking is that the answer is, "no." couple that with the fact that no one (as of late) has made any choices FOR me and that they have all been my own. so, that said, i should be cool with the decisions i make, right? right. if i'm strong, sound, and rational enough to use/make "better judgements" i should be strong and sound and rational (throw confident in there too) enough to deal with said choices and/or decisions.

that's what i thought.

p.s. a co-worker just hipped me to a new mantra... "you did it... own it... fix it." imma have to go 'head and adopt that one for a minute. a few of us out there might consider doing the same.

go figure

my stomach hurts :( we're on day 3 of that bs.

and the broad that works next to my cube at work (the one that believes she's the smartest thing since newton) just said "subsideraries"... not "subsidiaries!" tell me that shit ain't hilarious?!?!?